A Tradgic Downfall with a Happy Ending..Sort of?

Life takes a lot out of people. But hey! it's life. I was previously reflecting on this past (school) year and was shocked that so much had happened. I knew all the events took place, but I didn't know it such a short amount of time. Different topics have made their way across my life this past little bit of time, like: love, hate, family, friends, school, money, job, future, past and present. I've always been the type of person who spends more time focused on the future rather than on the here and now. My longest relationship by far, one of my favorites, challenging, inspiring, emotionally hard and scariest I've ever known. This boyfriend and I spent endless hours talking and many people tend to bash long distance relationships, but I think they take strength that most people aren't willing to work on. Unfortunately fate changes, ideas change and you grow up. Sometimes you have to learn to step outside of the fairytale world and learn to live. I loved my relationship, don't get me wrong, but the leaves were changing and so was I and the future element of the world began to scare me. Was I going to stay in NC or move away? Go to college or not? And sometimes in life you have to take chances and learn to dive into the unknown which is what I did on October 1, 2009. I met someone who was willing to take the leap into the deep dark world that is my day to day life. Between struggling for acceptance and fighting with myself to do what is best. Parents never understand as much as they think they do and they hurt you sometimes.
I've worked so hard this year in school and I recieve "student of the year" at my high school.
Bottom line, I change, you change, we all change and sometimes those changes tear us apart but it's better in the end. Even though we get lied to or we lie to someone else, it doesn't make them or us a bad person, just a good person who makes the wrong choices sometimes.
Sometimes I don't like the idea of being settled I like to still be free, you know?
I need to explore and soon enough I'll be 18 and an adult, my time to show the world who I am.
Lydia.